Momentum

"Here is the test to find whether you're mission on earth is finished..."

Currently:

Reading: Tomorrow I WILL be going to get "Longing" by Karen Kingsbury or I will die trying

Watching: I'm sure somewhere in my house there is some sort of Christmas move playing

Listening: "The Meaning of LIfe" by Hawk Nelson

 It only takes one to make a difference
It takes a little to change
Lets start today for a new tomorrow
Don’t look back
I wont look back now

Hey yah gonna find a new beginning
Lately tired of the life I’m livin
Find a way to make a change
In the lives of all of us who need
To find the meaning of life

"If you're alive,"

30 days ago I started a journey, not really sure of the path it would take me down. I just knew in my heart of hearts I needed something to change and I was ready to pursue Him more than I pursued people on Facebook. Some days were more successful than others, some days I plainly just failed, some days I soared on His wings. For the first time in a while, I felt longing. I wanted something more than just to get through and I would rather leap again and crash to the ground then keep going the way I was. And I have found some of that girl that died the first time that she was broken.

30 days ago I thought I knew what intimacy was...

and then I sat with God the first thing every morning

"I have loved you with an everlasting love;

 I have drawn you with unfailing kindness." 

30 days ago I thought I was living a holy life

and then God examined by heart

"The LORD does not look at the things people look at.

People look at the outward appearance,

but the LORD looks at the heart."

30 days ago I was complacent

and then God made me hungry 

"Blessed are those who hunger 

and thirst for righteousness,
   for they will be filled."

30 days ago I was looking to finish the 30 days

and now I am running straight for Him

"What matters most to me is to finish what God started:

the job the Master Jesus gave me of letting everyone I meet 

know all about this incredibly extravagant generosity of God."

30 days ago I thought about how hard 30 days would be. Now I stand amazed at how small it seems. Because I started a lifelong journey. I stopped giving half. I stopped "doing what I was told". I just stopped. And sat. And listened, learned, and fell in love. My heart is now open to life. Because my heart has been opened to Him. Today I did not finish, I have only just begun...

 How did you finish? Or should I say how did you begin?

"...it isn't." ~Richard Bach