Thursday, November 24, 2011

Mummify and the un

"The art of living does not consist in preserving and clinging to a particular mode of happiness,"
Currently:
Reading: Waiting to get to the bookstore to buy, "Longing" by Karen Kingsbury
Watching: The sun come up in my window
Listening:"Preserve Me" by Jordan Johnson

Preserve me oh God
Let not shame stand in my way
I have no good apart from you

I keep running after broken cisterns that never satisfy
I keep running after broken cisterns that never satisfy

Won't you open up my soul
Won't you open up my soul
 
"but in allowing happiness to change it's form without being disappointed by the change;"
Have you ever noticed there are three types of people? The ones who see the best in others, but the worst of themselves. The ones who see themselves as the best, and the rest of the world as less. And the ones who get it right, they see the best and the worse in themselves and others and praise people in their strengths yet gently encourage them to grow in their weak areas.
This week I've really been struggling with the idea that I am failing, in all areas of life. Not in a, "woe is me, the world would be better without me" way. But in this way of having unrealistic expectations of myself that I would never expect of others. Of expecting people to find fault with me or my actions when I know in my heart I have done nothing to justify these feelings, when I have opened myself up to others to let me know when I've wronged them.
The truth is I know, I am far from perfect. I know I will make mistakes. If I took a step back I could look at this week and KNOW I have made a few. But I have been condemning myself when I easily could go to the Lord with sincerity in my heart, and be loved. And I have. But I need to be reminded that I am accepted as well.
Because the truth is I will make mistakes
I say to the LORD, “You are my Lord;
   apart from you I have no good thing.”  
But I was chosen even at my lowest points
God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things
—and the things that are not—
to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him. 
And given a path to be made new
On the other hand, if we admit our sins
—make a clean breast of them—
he won't let us down; he'll be true to himself. 
He'll forgive our sins and purge us of all wrongdoing. 
I fell in love with our "quote for the day" this morning because the truth is happiness changes with the season, we are allowed to find it; but joy, true joy, comes from Jehovah. I'm so thankful for that. So let's preserve joy, and unwrap the mummy of self deprecation. So what are you and I not letting go of? It's been 24 days of journeying with God. Seeking Him out wholly. Will we wholly give ourselves to Him?
"happiness, like a child, must be allowed to grow up." ~Charles L. Morgan

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